Tag Archives: coping

Dealing with Deployment

My heart has been heavy, like an anchor keeping me in a perpetual state of worry. I’m making a career change, and I’ve been offered a few jobs but nothing I can see myself truly embracing. I feel the most … Continue reading

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Run Julia run

The tingle in my muscles and the jitters in my joints are returning. The need to flee is coming back. The brutality of self-loathing is bubbling. I don’t recognize myself and I’m starting to feel distant. I hate who’s been … Continue reading

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Widow weight

I feel like I have a boulder dragging behind me everyday since I got the news George was dying. The day he passed that boulder became a mountain and rather than dragging it, I turned around and stared at it. … Continue reading

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