After 7 and a half hours in the car I finally have arrived in Orlando. I did a lot of crying, thinking, made up conversations on the trip down and I feel a bit better. I talked to my sister about life problems and how things are going. I always appreciate her perspective on life, career and relationships and she really emphasized to go back to what I know when dealing with grief. The first go around I just worried about getting through the day without screwing up and hoping the next will be better. So I’m going back to that method. I can’t be focused on the end result because it will only disappoint if I don’t meet what I envision in my head.
Today marks my parents 39th wedding anniversary. It’s such a blessing to get to see how my parents have made it last through time and continue to appreciate and love each other. I want that. I hope I can find it some day.