Return to Alabama

Visiting connecticut did wonders for my confidence, self esteem and just overall well being. I can always rely on the unconditional love of my family to stanch any flow.

I visited Brooklyn with my best friend from HS and college and we walked through park slope and I showed him the apartment George and I lived. We also walked through prospect park. I haven’t been back there since he died. I loved it. It felt so good being back there and remembering all the bike rides, walks, runs, hang outs George and I had there. It was beautiful. I love Brooklyn.

However, upon return to Alabama I do feel all out of sorts again. I hate being so far away from my family, but I do have a growing community here. This afternoon my assistant and I went to NYC Gyros on Commerce St and the owner takes my spin classes in Mondays. It was awesome! He was so friendly and genuinely happy to see me visit his restaurant. Plus the food there is incredible. But when I was sitting there I thought about all the people who pass through your life, whether you interact directly with them or if they are peripheral. I’ve noticed I’ve been doing something with tinder… Yes tinder. I’ve been pretty engaged with people’s back stories. Like what makes them, where they come from, who we know in common, etc. It’s been a fun distraction and I’ve met some really interesting people on there. I know it get a wrap for a hook up site, but the journey’s people have gone through are fascinating. And it has really made me appreciate what I have and not so much have me miss what I can’t have anymore. It also has mustered up some creativity and I’ve started writing fiction again. It’s been awhile since I’ve written fiction, but I feel inspired to create a fanciful life to escape to. Plus I’m surrounded with incredible history here in Montgomery. It was bound to stir up the creative juices.

Raise your glass up to the memories.


About J.

Fitness professional, fitness & nutrition writer, widowed at 28. Writing about getting through grief through self-care, physical activity, and the ​constant feeling of being uncomfortable.
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3 Responses to Return to Alabama

  1. DuM says:

    I bet your trip home did wonders on your ego. Didn’t you have…? You go girl. You should be more honest with your readers though. You pretend to act like you’re doing all sorts of healing but really you went and have been having less than “good clean fun”. Makes me wonder how truthful your story is. Mike

  2. Devaney says:

    Was your trip home good for your ego? It seems having — with at least 3 — would do that. You should be more honest with your readers, in the spirit of sharing what helps you through grief.

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