I changed my bed sheets

The title makes this post sound really gross but it’s not. As a wedding gift George and I received a lovely set of bed sheets. When we got them we immediately started using them. They have been the only sheets I’ve used since receiving them. I wash them and then throw them back on the bed. When he died I couldnt dare switch them out. Until Saturday.

On Saturday I decided to do a full blown sheet load and my friend asked why I didn’t use the more colorful sheets on my bed. George and I used the bright purple sheets until we got the wedding sheets. I just shrugged my shoulders and said I didn’t know. Well we kind of stared at each other for a few seconds and finally I broke gaze and sighed. It’s time to change the sheets.

As I write this I am laying in bed on top of the bright purple sheets and it turns out life and the world did not cave in nor implode because of my switch up. I’ve slowly been doing changes, like I don’t wear George’s wedding ring quite as often anymore. And you know what, at first I’m really flustered and anxious but then when nothing happens I feel okay. It’s such a learning experience and doing things that are comfortable for so long and then gradually making alterations has allowed me to further my independence. Continue to work through the new normal.

The time is coming, Im almost ready to clean out the closet and donate his clothes.

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About J.

Fitness professional, fitness & nutrition writer, widowed at 28. Writing about getting through grief through self-care, physical activity, and the ​constant feeling of being uncomfortable.
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3 Responses to I changed my bed sheets

  1. When my husband died I didn’t have the luxury of keeping most of his things. However I have kept my own personal mementoes. I wore his wedding ring until I felt ready to begin dating again. A small part of me was rejuvenated when I bought new bedding…I didn’t have to ask my husband what type of bedding he wanted….oh my what freedom! I’ve found that finding the new normal is about finding joy in the little moments.

    Congratulations on changing the sheets!

  2. I get it. Bed sheets are a big deal! I was different in that I bought entirely new bedding and a new bed in order to make the space my own. It was very intentional – kind of a “screw you for dying” thing. The shitty thing about being widowed and single (well one of) is having to change the sheets alone though. I’m very petite and it takes me about 20 minutes!

    The thing I’ve struggled to change and get rid of are toiletries we shared. I think I’ll forever be washing my hair with shampoo designed for coloured hair, even though I don’t dye mine!

    I like your blog. Thanks for writing.

    • J. says:

      Thanks for reading! Little things that come so easily to others is ends up being over analyzed and dissected for wids. It’s tough but it makes us stronger at the end.

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