Early day

I knew today was going to be a bad day. I just felt it from the moment my alarm interrupted my dream. When I arrived at the office at 6am… goddamn morning practice… I just didn’t feel like myself. When I went to practice, apparently my team didn’t either. I was very quiet for most of practice because I’m in this mindset that my team needs to start adjusting and coaching themselves at times. Becoming more self-aware and motivated. Well, they weren’t really working hard or understanding the big concepts I was teaching. It was really basic stuff too. Might be because they had 2 days off, but regardless, consistency is important to success.

At one point I lost my mind and my assistant later on reaffirmed that it wasn’t really all that bad. I made them run laps until I calmed down and hopefully they could mentally pull it together. So it was a win-win for all with taking those laps. When they returned they did perform better, but my mood was done. After practice I did some work in the office, but my mind was not there. I was not productive at all. I was going to stay until 2pm but I had to leave earlier. I needed to take care of myself.

Days like today I wish I wasn’t coaching. I needed a day for myself, but unfortunately those will become few and far between until middle of May. I just have to accept days like this are just going to happen. I wish they wouldn’t but thats the way it goes.

Better luck tomorrow. I really miss George. A lot.


About J.

Fitness professional, fitness & nutrition writer, widowed at 28. Writing about getting through grief through self-care, physical activity, and the ​constant feeling of being uncomfortable.
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